"You didn't know what was going on. But you didn't accept being treated like that," she says, clarifying.

Carolina did. It all made a twisted kind of sense to her that she could only pick apart later. It hadn't been right, but she'd spent so long trying to win the system it had to be if it was going to mean anything.

And it wasn't just the system.

"I thought I deserved it. Good parts and bad parts."

For not being good enough.