[ What the fuck even is this? Kevin lets out a long breath, mostly out of habit because "out of habit" is the only way Kevin does any kind of breathing to begin with. ]
It's not the same thing but I feel you cause like.. I'm like... there's a whole rest of my life, or my death I guess? That was all out in front of me forever. But I've just been me for ten years now, man, and I don't... nothing changes for me? Everybody moves on but me.
[ ...That came out a lot more sincerely than he wanted it to. He's focusing more and more on what's being said here than on the theoretical mythical horse situation. ]
Like don't get me wrong, the whole apocalypse thing I was dealing with was fucking horrible and this is a really selfish thought nobody should ever have. But uh.
[ He holds out his hands. ]
At least it meant that's... things got no choice but to change now.
And here, things got no choice but to be different like this.
And maybe I don't know what to do, but like. I've never known what to do? And having no choice but to do something sort of feels better than spending forever doing nothing again?
[ Kevin manages a half-smile, and that expression is much more tired than anything he's shown thus far. ]
It's a couple kinds of fucked and it's scary as shit and I promise I'm not like, worrying, but also bro I'm sorry you got anything close.
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[ What the fuck even is this? Kevin lets out a long breath, mostly out of habit because "out of habit" is the only way Kevin does any kind of breathing to begin with. ]
It's not the same thing but I feel you cause like.. I'm like... there's a whole rest of my life, or my death I guess? That was all out in front of me forever. But I've just been me for ten years now, man, and I don't... nothing changes for me? Everybody moves on but me.
[ ...That came out a lot more sincerely than he wanted it to. He's focusing more and more on what's being said here than on the theoretical mythical horse situation. ]
Like don't get me wrong, the whole apocalypse thing I was dealing with was fucking horrible and this is a really selfish thought nobody should ever have. But uh.
[ He holds out his hands. ]
At least it meant that's... things got no choice but to change now.
And here, things got no choice but to be different like this.
And maybe I don't know what to do, but like. I've never known what to do? And having no choice but to do something sort of feels better than spending forever doing nothing again?
[ Kevin manages a half-smile, and that expression is much more tired than anything he's shown thus far. ]
It's a couple kinds of fucked and it's scary as shit and I promise I'm not like, worrying, but also bro I'm sorry you got anything close.